September is being a bitch to me. I've gone 23 days without finishing a SINGLE book, and that doesn't even count the one attempt I've made at reading. One. Attempt. What the hell is wrong with me? This has never happened before. I've never gone this many days without reading. I've never gone this many days without WANTING to read. My desire has been non-existent, and just wtf is a booknerd to do when they can't seem to find the energy to pick up their kindle or a physical copy and just escape reality? I'm truly perplexed right now, so I've been examining reasons why this is happening, and I've got a list. And I'm hoping that, by doing this, I'll be able to figure out ways to combat this feeling of I want to read but I actually don't. <--Isn't this just the worst? Ugh.
#1. I've been sick. Since the middle of August, I've been dealing with major health problems, and I even had surgery the first week of September (which was also my first week of fall classes, so that was a real fucking joy). And since then, I've been recovering. But it's taking me a long time, and I won't even have a post-surgery checkup until the middle of October. So yeah, that's awesome. And you would think that by not doing much, I'd have the time to read. Well, that's not true for me. When I'm sick, I don't want to do ANYTHING. All I want to do is lie around, sleep, and watch movies/TV. So because of that, I will spend a week binge-watching Friday Night Lights (yes, I totally did do that), but I won't pick up a single book. And I haaate it.
#2. I've been incredibly stressed out. Because of the health problems, and my car deciding to break down again, and classes, I have had SO MUCH going on. So much so, I spent days trying to figure out what to do about the semester. I stressed out over a big decision. I asked myself if I should continue with 5 classes and get graduation over with in December or if I should reduce my workload and push it back until May. In the end, and with my mom's advice and help, I decided to drop 2 classes and just finish out the spring semester online (so now I have a May graduation date). Honestly, I was pretty upset about having to do that because I literally only needed 5 more classes to graduate, and I told everyone I was going to be done by the end of 2015. But since then I've come to realize that this was the best choice I could have made. With everything going on, and with how this summer went, for my own sanity, I needed a smaller workload.
#3. I've been telling myself I can't read another book until I catch up on reviews. Are you surprised by this? Because I was. I've always procrastinated in writing reviews, but this summer was AWFUL. I pushed back so many reviews that I had books I read in June that still needed one. Why the hell did I do this to myself? My past self is on my shit list right now. And since then, I've just pushed off reading anymore books because I didn't want to add more stress on myself. Why add ANOTHER review to my list? Why read another book when I don't have the energy for it anyway so I can just make it even harder for myself to write reviews? So yeah, I've been making myself wait, and it's actually been going well. I'm down to 6 reviews, 2 of which are already half-finished. I'm getting there!
Oh wow, this post got negative really fast. I am sorry! I promise I'm feeling more positive and optimistic about everything now. But it was a hard few weeks there, and without books, I felt lost and just OFF. And I could still use some advice! So, here's my question for you: How do you deal with reading slumps? Do you push through it, make yourself read? Or do you take a break and just let that love for reading come back on its own? Nothing has really been working for me obviously, and I could use a different method. Or maybe I should just push myself to review those last few books. Maybe after that, I won't be so stressed or overwhelmed with reading anymore.