This post is just a little thing about my thoughts on the series as a whole and what I think now versus then and what I'd ignored the first time or forgotten. :)
I unship Ron and Hermione. Like whoops, but I’m still not a fan of them. And it’s not that I don’t like Ron, because I do think he is an inherently good person, but he could be so obtuse and jealous and selfish and rude. I do get his personality, in most ways! He was the one people forgot about in the golden trio, the one who didn’t have the fame or the brains, the one that had always felt looked over and he was certainly compensating for what he lacked (especially the footsteps he’d had to follow with his older brothers). But I’m still just meh about them. All they did was fight with each other. I just don’t think that Ron can match Hermione, that he’s her equal. His emotional immaturity probably will get better as he gets older, but he’s got a long way to go to and I don’t really see him keeping up with her throughout the years.
And I may or may not have gotten stronger feels about Harry and Hermione. Not always romantically shipping them, but I definitely felt that their relationship was so intimate and just stronger than Hermione/Ron’s and Harry/Ginny’s combined. And it doesn’t help that the movies really play into this with them. (Let’s not forget that random dance scene in Deathly Hallows Part 1). So, I kiiiiind of shipped them. I also quite liked Ginny and Harry together, so idk. I just really hated seeing Hermione with Ron.
The amount of abuse that Harry suffered is largely ignored and forgotten. I’m VERY surprised that the emotional abuse and neglect he suffered at the hands of the Dursleys was completely brushed over, as if it didn’t have lasting effects on him. And it seemed not to, but that means nothing, and I don’t quite believe he’s perfectly FINE after all that. Plus, with losing Sirius and then Dumbledore and Fred and Lupin and Tonks, I just can’t. It hurts too much. This poor boy deserved better.
Sirius Black also deserved better. I am not kidding when I say that I will NEVER get over his death. Never. It is so unbelievably unfair to both Sirius and Harry. Sirius, who spent twelve years in Azkaban for a crime he didn’t commit, who lost his best friend, and then Harry all in one, who put this kid above all else. And Harry, who finally found a home and a family with his godfather, the way that James and Lily had always wanted. These two had deserved more time together, and they had deserved better.
I feel more for James and Lily than I do even for MCs in stories. They’re dead, you know? But they feel more real and more alive than so many characters I’ve read. I’ve cried over them quite a bit during these rereads, and it just SUCKS that Harry didn’t get to grow up with them, that he only knew them through others and through other moments in the series. I wish they’d never died. I wish he’d been able to know them as Sirius and Lupin had. Also something I can’t stop thinking about: James told Lily to take Harry and run even though he had no wand and no way to defend himself. He knew he’d die, but they came first always. And then of course, Lily would not stop shielding Harry even when she knew it would cost her her life. They were two of the bravest souls. I HATE IT ALL SO MUCH.
The marauders are everything to me (excepting fucking Wormtail, of course). Dear god, these boys. I love them so, so much. Their friendship is everything, especially the one between Sirius and James. THESE TWO. They did enable each other when they were kids, like the Weasley twins, but they grew up into such fine young men who didn’t realize that they would soon be separated by death. *sobs* “I would have died before I betrayed them.” *dies* Sirius loved James SO MUCH, and all he wanted when they died was to take care of his precious godchild. But he COULDN’T. He could not fulfill the duty James had given him, and I’m sure Harry looking so much like his father just absolutely killed him at times. And then you had Lupin, who was not only accepted into the fold, but who was so loved he had friends who willingly turned into animals to keep him company and save him from himself. What kills ME is that James died thinking Lupin might be a traitor and Sirius lost them both at the same time because Lupin had believed him to have killed Pettigrew and betrayed their best friends. I HATE EVERYTHING. My one consolation is that Lupin and Sirius had each other in the end.
Snape is a goddamn bully, and Dumbledore kept too many secrets. I mean I always knew that Snape was a bully, but I feel like I got swept up in the bravery that Snape had shown once you finally understand his character, and how fabulously dressed and wise Dumbledore is. But they’re two people that really needed to learn some lessons of their own. And honestly, Snape had only one redeeming quality: his love for Lily. He never protected Harry because it was the right thing to do; he only did it because he’s Lily’s son. He never cared for the boy, not even by the end of his life. And the amount of abuse that he inflicted upon Harry is not something that should be forgiven so easily. As much as his “Always” moment gives me such feels, I really wish he’d been a better person. And with Dumbledore, UGH. This man had issues with telling people the truth, and Things happened that hadn’t needed to happen if he’d just been honest. I know that he had wanted to spare Harry more pain, that he had wanted to preserve what little childhood happiness he’d had, but he should have realized that Harry had never been an innocent boy.
Neville is the actual best. I’m so sad that Neville is basically pushed aside by everyone in the story, that he’s always laughed at and underestimated. I’m sad that none but a few ever find out that his parents are two of the bravest people ever. And Neville inherited that courage. No matter what anyone says, he belonged in Gryffindor. If his parents could have seen him at the end of the book, they would have been so, so proud of their boy. He was an unfailingly kind and sweet person and he deserved MORE from people. #nevilledefensesquad
Hermione was the real hero of the series. Sorry to Harry, but he never would have been able to do anything without Hermione’s help. He may be skilled as fuck, but she is the brightest witch of her age, and she was the thread that held everything together. Without her, he would have been lost.
I’m more Gryffindor than I think. Of course I have to think about my House here! It’s something that had always surprised me when I took quizzes, given how much I’m Ravenclaw. (Incidentally, there’s not even a huge gap between how Gryffindor I am compared with the rest. I’ve got a bit of all the Houses in me). But ultimately, I think I am a lion. I’m pretty much a Hermione Granger, in a lot of aspects. I’m going to go more in-depth with the Houses in general in another post, because clearly I spend too much time thinking about this series. Haha. I just really love belonging to Gryffindor. <3
Little things I’d forgotten or missed the first (or few) times:
- Harry didn’t have much of a relationship with Dumbledore. I remember thinking they had because they cared for one another a lot, but in actuality, they were hardly together in the books.
- Book Ginny is 100% better than Movie Ginny. Also she, like Neville, is pretty ignored until book six, when Harry finally starts to see her in a romantic light. But she is such a badass, and so fierce, and I wish she’d had more page/air time than she was given.
- Fred and George were such little assholes. I love them still, obvs, but man they sucked at times.
- McGonagall loved Harry, a lot, and she was extremely proud to have him in her House. She was always so protective of her cubs, and she put them first through everything. She’s one of my favorite fictional characters ever.
- Draco never really redeemed himself by the end, did he? Sad.
It was SO good being back in this world. I love it so much. Are you guys a fan of Harry Potter? Which House are you in? Let's talk! :)